Sometimes I just feel like a recluse…

img_0033I get bored. Like constantly. My brain must be doing something at all times. Needless to say, I’m always on Facebook or Instagram scanning and searching for some sort of stimuli. I can’t just…idle. Remember being kids in the summertime and constantly complaining that we were bored? My mom always threatened to give me something to do. But now, I have things to do and plenty of them none of which are getting done.

My brain is foggy. I blame the amount of mind-altering drugs that I take. I know fogginess is a side effect, but there has to be something I can do to help.

I’m physically and mentally exhausted. I come home everyday from work and take a 2 hour nap. Somehow I’m able to go back to bed at 8pm and fall asleep without a hitch. Staying asleep without being restless (according to my Fitbit) is another issue. I think it’s the lack of exercise keeping me down. I bought a flip belt with full intentions of using it to store my phone while I rock out and do a couch to 5k program. It’s just fighting that “I must sleep” feeling. It’s become impossible. So, what if I take my workout clothes to work with me, change before I leave and head straight to the park to exercise after work? I know I’ll have more energy after and maybe, just maybe I’ll find a way to get some chores done or even work on a hobby like learning how to cook or quilt, for instance. I almost consider getting my thyroid checked again. I am losing tons of hair, but I researched and found that is a side effect of lithium which I consume 1500mg worth on the daily. Plus, it was only 1.5ish (which is where I want it to be) so I’m guessing it didn’t go through the roof in only a few months time.

Maybe if I cut back on social media (gasp!) and find the energy to work out, I’ll be able to think more clearly and I’ll feel better about my time at home or even maybe I’ll spend more quality time with my husband and we won’t bicker so much.

Any thoughts, motivational or inspirational or any in general would be much appreciated. 

1 Comment

  1. We all need to rest sometimes. Some more. It’s not always bad to just rest.

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